Twelve hours from now will be in a room prepping for my surgery. Its amazing how fast this day has come. I am a mixture of fear and excitement. Its reality, I am am actually going through with it. It may be a surprise to some since it seems I have felt short in the past. Hence why I have opted for this surgery.
So many things are going through my mind. What if I don't lose anything? I will let down not only myself but everyone who is supporting me. Sure it seems like a silly fear, but it' still there. This surgery is just a start, a push in the right direction. The rest is up to me.
I just need to remind my self over the next few weeks that really losing weight will be a bonus. Its a time for healing. I have already lost 16 pounds with the pre-surgery diet so that is a start right? Since I am having a lap band my weight lost will be slower then the to other surgeries.
With the weight loss being slower am hoping it will be healthier. One step at a time, this is the first one.
Thank you to all my wonder friends and family who are supporting me.
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